particular

the way i miss you is unreal.
the though occurs to me
that you won't feel the same,
but it's bizarre
that i don't care.
happy thinking's gotten easy
i forget that the particulars
in particular that
confuse the issue of us
get in my way
and the particulars
that i prefer, in particular,
to remember
float to the forefront.
the ache i feel and don't feel in
your absence is unreal.
only a candlemark's turn away
and all i think isn't particularly
clear on where we are
in relative geographic positions
particularly when all i think is
in terms of fucking distance,
FUCK ... just come back --
that i could want you
here to such extent is unreal
though it feels very real
in every particular.